A Gentleman Traveller

For a long time now I have fought with an enemy an enemy, with whom I know better than perhaps anyone. An enemy who has brought me to tears more so than any heartbreak, any loss and that can and has sent me in to a tailspin of despair. This enemy is my self, I have for a long time now fought with depression and self hatred. I was doing so well for over three years I gave up smoking and the lure of it.  It was during my time in LA when I had felt more at peace with my self that I had ever done before hand. With my love of yoga, the practise that meant and still does mean so much to me. Due to my lack of self discipline, I have lost it my love of exercise and peace of mind that came with it.  There were times gone by where I would feel so....lost and alone that the thought of death was never far from ones mind. The idea of loosing all that I felt I had already lost would eat away at me like a like plague of insects devouring my mind and nerves slowing. The things that onc

Through a cloud and haze has my mind as of late has my mind been as of late. It has been a while since I last felt the compulsion to write on this blog of mine. Today however a snake in the grass has compelled me to such an extent to express my self through words, before I my actions become what they will. My thoughts and feelings miss placed, my loyalties questioned. Evidence has arisen of what I was informed of and my gut feelings have answered. A warning was issued to me through a friend close to ones heart, a stark warning of what was to come, a warning that I knew would come to fruition and yet those around me ignored it. There are those in this world who say one thing and yet act in another entirely. This is the behaviour of a cancerous serpent, one which has no place in my company. One whose behaviour towards those closest to ones heart is unacceptable. Being one of those whom has grown up with Asbergers Syndrome I can perfectly understand, that some people have trou